The Night Sky

AND WE'LL RELEASE THIS TOWN FROM THE PEOPLE
WHO ARE TRYING TO KNOCK IT DOWN
AND THEN ONLY CITY LIGHTS WILL BRIGHTEN THE NIGHT SKY
AND THERE WILL BE NO SOUND

OPEN THE BARS AND
OPEN THE MARKETS
OPEN THE BANKS AND
OPEN THE CHURCHES

AND WE'LL RELEASE THIS TOWN FROM THE PEOPLE
WHO ARE TRYING TO KNOCK IT DOWN
AND THEN ONLY CITY LIGHTS WILL BRIGHTEN THE NIGHT SKY
AND THERE WILL BE NO SOUND

WE'VE BEEN COWERING SO LONG
OH WHAT I WOULD GIVE
TO STAND AT THE BUS STOP
OR BROWSE IN A BOOKSHOP
TO SLEEP AND ALWAYS BE STILL

AND WE'LL RELEASE THIS TOWN FROM THE PEOPLE
WHO ARE TRYING TO KNOCK IT DOWN
AND THEN ONLY CITY LIGHTS WILL BRIGHTEN THE NIGHT SKY
AND I WILL BE SET FREE FROM THE PEOPLE
WHO ARE TRYING TO BURY ME
AND THEN ONLY FIREWORKS WILL LIGHT THE SKY AT NIGHT
FOR ALL THE WORLD CAN SEE

by KEANE

trying to be perfect

"I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect boss - the perfect parent - or the perfect outfit. But maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been dealt, and accessorize what we've got."
-Carrie (Sex & the City)


I finally realize how important it is to look around and accept people for who they are. I've spent a lifetime holding myself and everyone else to impossible standards. For so long I felt that I couldn't accept myself. To those of you who at times I've rejected, hurt, and treated unkindly please read this and recognize it as my apology to you. I may have seemed stuck in my head. Obsessed with myself. It was all a disguise I wore well hiding the real me. Thank you for believing there was more underneath the surface and for your forgiveness.

For You

ever since your captivating eyes
illuminated my dark skies
when you held me like you do
without a doubt i knew
i am somebody else inside
my secrets to you i confide
you held my heart in your hand
a life together we planned
you are undeniably the one for me
despite all the flaws you see
love rushed into our lives
just like a tide when it arrives
the love that binds us is true
all of my life i will live for you



for my love

then, now and forever

05.23.2008

when we said goodbye

it was another cold october day
words couldn't express what i had to say
walking away from you was unbelievably hard
i had to leave the place that left me scarred
all of the memories we shared
not seeing you everyday had me scared
who would take care of you
our family would be there, that i knew
you gave me the gift of life
in turn i caused you much internal strife
i know you did the best you possibly could
teaching me how to love, that you did good
hugging you that last time made me cry
when we said goodbye

you were supposed to grow old

i've let you slowly slip away
losing a part of you each day

forgetting the sound of your voice
letting the impact you had vanish is a choice

i can still see your smile
we'll be together again, in just a while

memories of you onto i hold
you were supposed to grow old

by jj
05.16.08

Yearning For Zion (Or In This Case...Style)

THIS IS SO HILARIOUS. TWO OF MY FAVORITE PEOPLE. MO ROCCA, AND TIM GUNN.

the pathetic president of the united states

President Bush is pathetic. This is just another reason he is the most unpopular President in US history. I detest him and everything he stands for.

Barack Obama accused President Bush of "a false political attack" Thursday after Bush warned in Israel against appeasing terrorists - early salvos in a general election campaign that's already blazing even as the Democratic front-runner tries to sew up his party's nomination.

The White House denied Bush had targeted Obama, who said the Republican commander in chief's intent was obvious.

In short order, the controversy spilled across the presidential campaign.

John McCain, the Republican nominee in waiting, said Obama was showing "naivete and inexperience and lack of judgment" in his willingness to meet with U.S. foes.

Hillary Rodham Clinton then called Bush's original comments "offensive and outrageous, especially in light of his failures in foreign policy."

As the workday began stateside, Bush gave a speech to Israel's Knesset in which he spoke of the president of Iran, who has called for the destruction of the U.S. ally. Then, the president said: "Some seem to believe that we should negotiate with the terrorists and radicals, as if some ingenious argument will persuade them they have been wrong all along."

"We have heard this foolish delusion before. As Nazi tanks crossed into Poland in 1939, an American senator declared: 'Lord, if I could only have talked to Hitler, all this might have been avoided.' We have an obligation to call this what it is - the false comfort of appeasement, which has been repeatedly discredited by history," Bush added.

With the president abroad and those seeking to succeed him campaigning at home, the transcontinental tiff signaled the early direction of the general election. Bush seemed to assume the traditional lame-duck presidential role in trying to help the Republican nominee-in-waiting, and Obama tried to maneuver for advantage - and to show strength - while on the cusp of clinching the Democratic nomination.

McCain played his political role as well in tandem with Obama, notable for two White House hopefuls who are campaigning for a bipartisan governing approach free of the often divisive discourse in Washington.

By tradition, partisan politics comes to a halt when a U.S. president is on foreign soil, and Bush's remarks led Obama to quickly cry foul. The first-term Illinois senator responded to the comments as if they were criticism of his position that as president he would be willing to personally meet with Iran's leaders and those of other regimes the United States has deemed rogue.

"It is sad that President Bush would use a speech to the Knesset on the 60th anniversary of Israel's independence to launch a false political attack," Obama said in a statement his aides distributed. "George Bush knows that I have never supported engagement with terrorists, and the president's extraordinary politicization of foreign policy and the politics of fear do nothing to secure the American people or our stalwart ally Israel.

the end is near

ABC News' Karen Travers Reports: For the first time this campaign season, Barack Obama has surpassed Hillary Clinton's support among superdelegates, according to the ABC News delegate estimate.

Sen. Obama, D-Ill., picked up two superdelegates this morning giving him a new metric to tout in addition to his current commanding leads in pledged delegates, popular votes, states won, and money raised.

Rep. Donald Payne, D-N.J., switched his endorsement from Clinton to Obama and Rep. Peter DeFazio, D-Ore., endorsed Obama. DeFazio was previously uncommitted.

With these endorsements, Obama has the support of 267 superdelegates and Clinton has 265 superdelegates.

who i've become

I used to be someone else. A liar, living for everyone else and not myself. Fear enveloped my entire existence. I spent countless hours deconstructing every thought that ran through my head. The person who spent years crying, praying and begging God to take it away. Suicide regularly came up when I felt I was losing ground. I was unwilling to live life as who I was. Holding myself to standards that were destroying me inside out. I hated my heart's desire. I tried to ignore it. Convincing myself I could win this battle. I could overcome these feelings. It was just a phase I would think. Something God put in my life to teach me something. What the struggle has taught me is paramount to who I am today. Scars from the hate I had for myself are still visible. I've begun to move on from this way of existing. I no longer apologize for who I am. I was born, and still am gay. It is about taking ownership and embracing what it means to be who I am. It was no conscious choice I made one day. It is inherent in me. People are still questioning my motives, my choices and deciding my eternal fate. I don't believe in their idea of God. God is someone else to me, and I am someone else to him.

live life

forget about your past
end how long it will last

don't let fear hold you back
get life back on track

a moment to wait forever for
ask out of each day more

don't turn around, look ahead
unlearn all the bad things said

the life you thought you lived shatters
happiness is the only thing that matters